So, I’m re-reading I Am Jennie by Jennie Ketcham, a recovering addict and former porn star who appeared on Sex Rehab with Dr. Drew and subsequent series Sober House. I bought the book originally in August or September 2012, on a random day when I was feeling pretty drawn to it. When I’m at the bookstore, it’s actually one of the most stressful times for me because I get so overwhelmed with potential books I want; it’s overstimulation in the greatest extent.
Anyhow, I love the book. When I first read it, I was mostly looking for details on her sordid days, the money she made, the fame, etc. I knew of her before Sex Rehab, but not too well. I thought she was hilarious as fuck. Either way, the book I think changed a lot of people’s perception of her. It’s awesomely laid out, jumping from her days as a kid, the seedlings of later trouble, to the time of her treatment which was early 2009 if I recall correctly. It’s a great book overall and I would totally recommend it to anyone I knew that was interested.
I saw a speech she gave at the Pasadena Recovery Centre in August 2012 where she had been treated by Dr. Drew, where she really hit home I think for almost everyone who would have seen it. I can’t speak for everyone, but after reading books on addiction, I’m often left with a feeling of “well, they fixed it. Yay for dem!”, but the truth is that it is an ongoing struggle. I had the same thing after reading How to Make Love Like a Porn Star, Jenna Jameson’s book in 2006. The book ends I think in 2002 or 2003, before Jenna’s life changed later on. I’m not saying I don’t expect life to change, I guess it is weird to some extent for a 20-something or 30-something writing much of their life story when there’s so much left. It’s just one of those things I guess. I’d like to be one of those people, maybe writing my memoirs, or at least the first part before I’m 30.
The book got me thinking a lot about how easily you can slip into very primitive, negative habits that can seem totally logical in the moment, but can ultimately destroy your body, mind, spirit and strength of heart at your own admission. It’s crazy to think of how much pain people subject themselves to by means of their negative thought patterns, myself included.
Below are links to where you can buy Jennie’s book, to her blog 🙂